Taking a Break

[Heather]

Hey all...

I just wanted to let everyone know, that I am taking a break from this forum...for medical reasons. Its complicated, but Ashlee and Ashlyn know why. If you want an explanation, they can tell you, or PM me, and I will tell you.

While my posting in here will be minimal, I will still check in. And I talk to both Ashlee and Ashlyn regularly, so if there is an issue, I will know about it, and can give them advice on how to handle it.

I love this forum, so hopefully, my absence will be temporary. But like I told Ashlee, I need to think about my health first and foremost, and the last thing I need right now is more stress.

So, be good, and I will see you all later.

~Heather

[Kari]

Well, I wish you all the best and that you will be better and back with us soon.

[Wieke]

good luck to you and I wish you all the best!

[oclover24]

Hope everything goes alright with your health, Heather! Good luck! :D

[*Ashlee*]

My poor Heather :(

Get well soon my dear :)

[Heather]

I shall try...but I really dont see this problem going away any time soon...

....which really sucks, because the not posting thing....its killing me!! :lol:

[Kari]

We'll talk on MSN :)

[*Ashlee*]

I shall try...but I really dont see this problem going away any time soon...

....which really sucks, because the not posting thing....its killing me!! :lol:

haha i know hun, i know!! I Shall help however i can though!

[Kari]

Actually you are quite right to take a break.
When I look at the pointlessness of some debates I am trying to have I feel like considering it, but I never could.

[Faith]

Maybe you should remove this thread? You are here more now than before you 'left' :lol:

[Heather]

Actually, Im not.

And I do pick and choose what threads I post in, and try to refrain from posts and threads that stress me out. And my posts are alot different.

This wasnt a joke, Gem. I ended up in the emergency room, unconscious because of stress. So, me stepping back, and letting Ashlee and Ashlyn take over the modding of this forum, was something I didnt take lightly.

And yes, I am a political junkie. So, its hard for me to not post. But I am pulling back, and trying to refrain. Especially since my health is in jeopardy.

[Webeh]

^ Wow! Are you okay?

Definitely step back and take some time to relax. Maybe take a relaxing vacation (that someone else will plan for you).

I hope you start to feel better soon.

[Heather]

Thanks, Webeh...

I wont even get into how horrible the last two weeks have been for me. Its really been a nightmare.

But Im trying to keep my life as stressfree as possible right now. Its kind of a necessity.

And yeah, I would love a vacation right now...if only I could afford one! :lol:

[*Ashlee*]

See she says she wants to keep it stress freee and she may not always post, though sometime she does and she ISNT AVOIDING the stress lol Essentially she is being a poo head lol She is here more than before her little leave lol Silly Heather :)

[Heather]

Is this your way of kicking me out, Ash? :lol:

But, seriously, none of the threads I have posted in have stressed me out in the least.

[*Ashlee*]

I would never kick you out my dear :) hehe

As long as you arent getting stressed then its great that you post

[Heather]

Trust me, I avoid the stressful posts with a vengeance. No one wants a recurrence of a week and a half ago less than I do.

To be perfectly honest, my brain is still recovering from it. There has been more than one instance of my brother asking my mom, "What the hell is wrong with Heather?" Because I have completely forgotten conversations we have had.

I know Im not better. Im not even close to 100%. And until I am, Im not even going to attempt to moderate this forum.

[Faith]

Heather - absolutely calm down? I made a flippant comment that I said as a joke, and I hate to break the illusion but I'm not pyschic? Laughter is the best medicine :)

The forum is supposed to be fun, not bad for your health! Tis only the internet

That being said, I hope all is well in reference to your health and that you get better

Watch lots of Scrubs, that always helps me

[Heather]

Yes, you made a flippant comment about a serious matter. The reasoning behind this thread is not a joke, or something I did to seek attention, and the other mods in this forum know just how serious it is.

You dont, because you didnt bother to contact me and ask what was going on. If you had done that, you would know just how serious it is.

I actually had a breakdown in my neurologists office today, when he was explaining to my mother the seriousness of my condition. To hear him vocalize what I have been feeling for the last few weeks, brought me to tears.

On some level, I thought it was just in my head, but to hear him explain to her the truth about what is happening to me, along with my fears and reservations that are a result of it...it was comforting to know that I wasnt imagining it, but at the same time, it was terrifying, because everything he said was so dead on.

This isnt a joke, its not a stab for attention. Im going through something very serious right now, something that could have killed me three years ago, when it last occured.

So being flippant, and making a joke out of it is like a slap in the face.

[Kari]

which is certainly now what she intended and yet I can imagine that it felt like it.
However, you really must take a break Heather and get time for yourself. I am worried and I bet others are, too.

[Heather]

Thanks, Kari.

My head knows that she didnt mean it that way, but that was really how it came across.

Im going through alot right now, and the idea of a recurrence terrifies me beyond words. The fact that people I work with saw me like that itself is tramatizing. But the day to day stress of life, has me fearing a recurrence.

Unless you've experienced it, you cant even begin to understand what its like. To be walking one minute, and everything is fine...and the next thing you know, you are being lifted into an ambulance, and cant even remember your name...its terrifying.

Honestly, there are parts of that day that I will probably never remember. And that is something I am dealing with.

Im really trying here. To do my job as an admin, while staying as stress-free as possible, so that I dont have a repeat performance of a few weeks ago. But its a fine line, and one that, frankly, Im afraid to tread.

[Kari]

I would be scared, everybody would. I just wish it will get better and pray for you.

[Faith]

I did not 'make a joke' out of the fact that you are sick.
I was teasing about the fact that were, like me, are a post addict.
I did this as an acquaintance, without realising the severity of your situation.
However, to say you overreacted to the post - this would be an understatement.
I have also not been in a position to contact you, due to a lack of internet and real life occurances that have stopped me from being able to do so. I also, believe it or not, did not wish to pry.
However, I shall not do so now as you obviously think I revel in the fact you are ill?
Maybe you should think about how logical that is.
I'm going to leave it, as you are obviously going through some serious crap and aren't going to listen to anything I say.
Whether you wish to believe it or not, I do hope that your health improves. There is nothing else I can say about that, other than I'll pray you will be okay.

[danyjoncew]

Oh, I believe you're doing the right thing and I do feel these threads in particular get too heated up for our own good.

And, obviously, I'm sorry and apologize if any of my posts ever got you mad.

[everwoodisfab]

sorry you're ill Heather, I wish you a speedy recovery and hope you manage to avoid as much stress as possible :)

[Heather]

Im not ill, per se, but had a recurrence of something I thought was gone. Its a neurological thing. To sum it up, as far as I know, I went to get lunch at the cafeteria, and was walking back to my desk, and the next thing I know, Im being lifted into an ambulance. I dont know what triggered it. But the ER doctor said that seizures can be brought on by stress, and God knows I have been stressed.

The last time I had one, was three years ago, and I was driving at the time. I literally could have died. Im lucky to have a few angels watching over me.

[M&M Vermelha]

I said this to a friend of mine who also had seizures while driving, but it wasn't a few angels. To get you out of something like this, it was God's left hand keeping you safe.

Can you still drive? I'm really sorry for you, although quite curious to understand what exactly triggers it, but that's just the future physician side of me.. lol

Was at least the ER doctor cute? I made my mom promise if I ever black out again, she will make sure I'll get a copycat of George Clooney to be my doctor.

Are you already killing people who tell you to join a yoda class or a meditation group? My friend tells people about her condition warning anything with putting your feet behind your neck, incenses and soybeans are a huge stress factor. She lives in one of our most stressful cities, if you ask me, she can't just avoid stress... therefore, she's on heavy medication and she just sings I love drugs.

[Heather]

Well, I live outside one of the most stressful cities in the world. :lol: Stress is a part of my everyday life, but I have tried to keep it in check.

Yes, I can still drive. For now, anyway. After the seizure three years ago, my license was suspended, and since then, I have had to be tested twice a year, in order to keep my license. Blood tests are fun, let me tell you.

And to let everyone in this forum know...and I really hate to do this, but I am taking a break, once again.

This morning my father had a heart attack, and stroke. So, needless to say, FB will not be high on my list of priorities right now. I need to worry about my family, and my dad.

The mods all know, and Chloe will be taking my place in here, until everything is under control.

As for my dad. Its not looking good. As I type this, my sister is speeding her way down I-95 to get here, and my brother is on a plane from El Paso. THey told my mom, "If there is family to call, you need to call them. He is a very sick man."

So, right now, my dad, and my immediate family is my main priority.

[oclover24]

^ I'm so sorry Heather! I hope he gets better, even if it is a slim chance. Good luck with everything and let us know what happens.

[M&M Vermelha]

Ow, I'm so sorry, Heather. I just hope everything will turn out okay.. I know there isn't much we can do, but if there is, needless to say you should feel free to ask. I'd pray for him if I was religious, but since I'm not, I just really wish him well and I hope things will be okay.

[Heather]

Well, even if you arent religious, but do believe in a Divine power, ask that power to keep him safe, and make him well.

When I took my older sister to the hospital, I didnt know how to prepare her for it. She was strong in front of him, then after we left the room to find my mom, she just broke down, and I held her while she wept.

My one cousin asked what she could do, and I said, "Pray". She replied, "Thats goes without saying".

So even if you dont believe in a God per se....positive thoughts do work wonders. So just please, put all the positive thoughts out there that you can.

[Kari]

Heather, I will include you and your family in every single of my prayers.

[Summer_Roberts2]

Heather, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I will be keeping your family in my prayers!

[BellaBlack]

Same here, all positive thoughts and prayers will be coming from me.

[Heather]

Thanks, guys.

We need all the prayers we can get right now. The doctors say the next 48 hours are crucial, and its not looking good.

[OTH man]

Heather, thoughts and prayers are so with you.


My mom, as I told you, was in ICU around Christmas and my Grandmother almost died multiple times this past month...

But, prayers are with you, and your entire family..

[Krysie]

Good luck Heather, Hope you get well soon! Take care.
I'll pray for you and your family!

[Heather]

Thanks, guys.

Ive told the mods the current situation, so Ill make the same post here.

Right now, I am waiting for my brother and cousin to pick me up, so I thought I would let you all know exactly what the situation is.

While my dad can breathe on his own (barely), he cant control his airway. He is back on the respirator, and within the next few days they will be shutting it off, effectively ending his life.

Needless to say, I will not be around for a few weeks. My mom, brother, sister and I, are at a complete loss, and inconsolable. There are no other words to describe what we are feeling right now.

My daddy is dying.

So, I am officially taking a leave of absence from FB, both for my family, and myself. My last days with my father, and helping my mother through this is my priority right now.

Once I am better, I will be back. But for now, I need to focus on my family, whose grief is just as painful as my own.

[BellaBlack]

I don't even know what to say.

I hope some miracle or good happens and your dad makes a different recovery.

Most of all, I hope your family makes it through this. You are strong so I have a feeling you will all be there for each other. I hope your dad spends all of his moments with the people he loves most.

Your family is my thoughts and prayers.

[Krysie]

I'm with Bella! My prayers are also with you and your family.*hug*

[OTH man]

Heather, I am very sorry

i dont even know what to say...

Prayers are with you

[Kari]

All I can say is that I pray for you to have the strength to get through this, but I know you will because you are a tough girl.

[Heather]

Just wanted to give everyone an update

My dad is going to be okay. I saw him today at the rehibiltation center that he was transferred to. He still has trouble walking, and using his right side, but other than that, he is okay.

I keep telling all my friends, its a miracle, and that if I ever had any doubt of there being a higher power, that doubt is gone. I know it sounds cliche, but its so true. A week ago, we thought it was the end, and were preparing for our good-byes. And now, he is my dad again. Its truly a miracle.

WHat can I say? Prayer works. It truly does.
When I called my best friend last Wednesday to tell her the situation, she wasnt surprised, after seeing him. She thought that it would be a matter of time until he passed. And now, he's walking, talking, laughing and joking like he always did before. It truly is a miracle. Thank you, God, for keeping my daddy safe.

And I just want to thank someone for all their prayers and kind words. It meant more than I can put into words. Thank you.

[oclover24]

Heather, he's okay? That is so great! I am so happy for you and your family!!! :D That truly is a miracle.

[Heather]

You have no idea. A week and a half ago, the doctors were literally telling us to get ready to say our good-byes. And now....

...I cant even find the words.