Michelle Rodriguez credits the death of her pal and Fast & Furious franchise co-star Paul Walker for her wild 2014 antics, which included romancing both Cara Delevingne and Zac Efron.
The Latina admits she went “pretty crazy” in the months following Walker’s car crash death at the end of 2013, adding, “A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind.”
Rodriguez tells EW.com, “I actually went on a bit of a binge… I was pushing myself to feel. I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was travelling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling.”
And she admits it took her months to recover from the death of her soulmate, adding, “I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who’s deep like me, who loves like that.
“When that disappears, you wonder, ‘Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?’ There was nothing to tether me to this existence: ‘Why am I f**king here? And, like, why’d you leave without me?'”
But when her wild stretch was over, she woke up one morning and knew it was time to stop being crazy and get back to living her life: “I just woke up with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, ‘You know what, Michelle? Stop f**king hiding. Go manifest’. And, all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling.”